Writing Frustrations

[flighty_dreams]

Sorry, if you don't feel like hearing a rant, go ahead and skip this. XD There are also a couple excerpts from what I've been writing of Spliced, if that helps.

I don't know why I'm having so much trouble with the next chapter. I started it and it was going okay if really slow, but then my characters hijacked the chapter and went off in this other direction. I stopped once I realized that what I was writing wasn't usable. And besides being frustrated by having to do a rewrite, part of me is also disappointed because well, it had a lot of smut. Good smut, or at least I think it was. But you can judge for yourself, although these are sorta taken out of context. Here are a couple samples:

He stroked Matt’s rigid cock again experimentally, enjoying how much it affected the man. Matt quivered, and he exhaled harshly.

“Stop.”

The same command as before, said just as weakly, while lust and frustration still waged a battle in Matt’s eyes.

Alex stilled his hand, but kept it cupping Matt’s groin teasingly as he observed, “If you really wanted me to stop, you’d push my hand away.”

Or, there's this part:

Alex’s own need was clouding his thoughts, but he knew Matt was much closer to the edge than he was. His fingers danced wickedly, finding a rhythm, and Matt thrust helplessly into his hand. He knew it wasn’t as much contact as the Kartan wanted, but it would be enough.

Between forceful thrusts of his tongue – no doubt imitating what his cock wanted to do to him – Matt was muttering a mix of curses and lewd descriptions of things he wanted to do to him.

Some of them weren’t even physically possible, but that wasn’t the point, Alex thought with a smile. It all told him that Matt was very close, and still very much himself. Most men would’ve been begging him by now; instead Matt was cursing him. Typical.

....And I'm throwing it all out. Done, can't look at it anymore, and I blame Matt for being an ass. I'm over it now, but at the time I really wanted to hit him. >.< Anyways, I'm hoping somewhere further down the line I'll be able to use the smut. But the scene as a whole doesn't work. The porn itself is fine plot-wise, but it heads off in another direction where it doesn't fit. Sigh.

So I started over, rewriting the chapter. Got about 900 words in and I'm stuck... AGAIN. Gah, I don't know what to do. Probably just need to mull it over at home or something, but I'm frustrated because I want to write NOW. What annoys me also is that I DO have a detailed summary for this chapter. But I feel like I want to change it, or expand it, or something. I dunno, and I'm waiting on la Muse to tell me.

Hopefully that happens very soon. I also thought about writing something else, like a flashback to Kristech I've been toying with, but I'm not sure if I want to go there at the moment. We'll see.

Sorry for the random rant. I felt the need to vent.